Today I met up with a friend from school for coffee and some window shopping. We stopped by Urban Outfitters and Anthropologie and eyed so many cute things, but with school right around the corner, it’s pretty hard to justify spending money on things I don’t really need. This summer has actually felt pretty lonely since I’ve spent so much time by myself driving back and forth between Seattle and Portland and staying in a house alone while I’m up in Washington. I’ve hardly had any time to get together with friends, so being able to catch up today was really nice. We talked about classes and apartment decorating, which helped me get a little more excited to go back. However, I also realized today that I’m feeling pretty nervous about starting a new year. I’m nervous because I feel like my college years are going by a little too fast. I’m going to be a junior this year and I don’t have everything quite as figured out as I’d like. My internship this summer definitely helped, but I’m worried that I might not be doing enough to prepare myself for what comes after I graduate. I’m also nervous that this year will be harder than usual for Eric and I. It’s weird to think that we’re embarking on our third round of going through everything together. This will be the third time I’ve moved down to school, the third year of waiting as patiently as I can for those weekend visits (which will be shorter and most likely farther apart than the last couple years). It will also be our third autumn together and I’m looking forward to Track Town Pizza nights, even if we won’t be able to go to another football game together, some Halloween celebrating, and hopefully going to the pumpkin patch together again (with some apple cider donuts of course!). Basically, life is pretty bittersweet right now.
( Cardigan: Express / Dress: Modcloth / Belt: Forever 21 / Wedges: American Eagle )